How are you? Did you enjoy yourself today? I guess you do get lotsa of returns today from your shopping and your high tea hah?
My day today is lonely. I spend it all together with my computer and irc. Surfing around for bears. and in irc there practically the whole day doing nothing but parking in irc and creating this homepage of yours. I cannot do sports today because i am sick today. I am down with cold, fever and cough. I am not trying to gain sympathy here. I just beginning to feel that life is empty and nothing without you and those pals, Sandeep and Vincent. I do not have many friends in my whole entire life. Friends to me is like come and go. Furthermore, my sisters psycho me not to believe in friendship because they were betrayed before. Therefore, as a youngest in the family, i somehow do get influenced by those stuffs created by them.
I am sorry about those things that i tell you. (eg. Like i want to be alone.) I am never a person who brings people down. In fact, i encourage people. People like vincent and many people in the irc and my ex-bs friends. My irc friend's father died suddenly. He is so sad. I console him. I never bring things down. They met with problems. I listen to theirs and kinda of console them. I admitted I am very weird and sensitive in the past few weeks. Now i realised it. Therefore, I am going back the original Robin again. I am sure that i can do it. I guess actions means louder than words. But I guess I do not have many chances to prove it if you have already forgotten those outings we supposed to have. For example, going running, gymming and swimming everything. As for this coming Monday, Fantasy Island, I am looking forward to it. But at this moment, it is hard for me to get back that fitness and strength to go tone up body everything, because my life is in a mess now. My family are so pressurizing and call me several times today to ask how my apology end up. My elder sister even say that she wants to go and find you after work. I am so disgusted by everything now. My sisters, my mum and my dad firing me questions like hell. But everything never lays my eyes to wet. YOU DID IT. I am feeling very sad yesterday. That's why I kept asking you to go off. I am sick, hungry and tired yesterday. I dun want you to see me in that kind of saddy state. So sorry.
Right now, I am thinking on how you enjoy yourself during your birthday. You seems free of trouble. But then at least you all understand the joy of making yourself happy. I dun remember the last time when i really enjoyed myself. I dunno what to say now. Except for tonnes and tonnes of sorrie to tell you. I guess I should end here.......... Have a good day Jessica. I going to rest now....byebye.....take care .......